go_blind

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 10:18:05 GMT

I have moved long ago

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Sun, 05 Sep 2004 10:17:44 GMT

I have moved long ago

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suckahz.

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 22:35:33 GMT

KIDS, I'm leaving. Not for good, but for a few weeks. Airplane to China in four hours, yeeah.

Because I no longer have purpose in this Livejournal, it will be deleted once I get back, or sooner. If I care to add you, I would have commented you already.

If I didn't comment, then that probably means (1)I've made a mistake or (2)I don't give a shit about you.

If you do believe the reason you are not on my new LJ list, _discommunicate, is (1), plz comment here or there. So I can add you. Or not.

THX GUYZ BYEE ♥

hi hi hi

Sat, 29 May 2004 20:21:34 GMT

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Hey, add.

hay fagz

Sun, 23 May 2004 10:50:10 GMT

This Livejournal will soon be mostly dead; meaning there will no longer be anymore personal updates.

If you do wish to continue reading about my young and boring life, feel free to add me at _discommunicate.
Do not add me only because you want more friends on your info list & you'll never read & never comment!! If you don't care about my journal then why should I care about yours?

I encourage you to seriously think this over and only add me if you really want. Thanks.

zzz

Fri, 21 May 2004 05:25:53 GMT

I came back home from school today and slept until 7pm. It was really nice, and I felt rejuvenated. It's like once you start sleeping a lot it becomes addicting and no matter how much sleep you get you always want more. I didn't go chill wth Elyse or Cameron tonight because of this. Turns out the plans didn't work anyways.

School was okay. In the morning, I went to SRVHS and got my schedule figured out. I'll probably be in three weighted/honors classes, which is definitely going to be a lot of work. But the good thing is that I'm getting requirements finished faster; so later on I will be able to freely choose what I want to do. I'm also taking an extra one because orchestra gets in the way of a regular schedule. It's not a big deal anymore, considering I have been taking extra classes for two years already.

I got In-n-Out fries & a chocolate shake and went back to school. The rest of the day was okay; I'm starting to chill with Emily and Natasha more. I don't think I want to be with Alex and those guys anymore; he really pissed me off today.

I'm pretty sure this weekend is going to suck, because no plans of mine have worked out. I'm getting drowsy again; I think I will continue to isolate myself from the world.

here

Thu, 20 May 2004 06:47:26 GMT

I've been sleeping a lot more these days; I guess the setting of my rooms makes it nicer. There's also not much going on in my life right now. I'm just trying to do well in school and waiting for things to be over and summer to arrive. I guess I've quit being so thoughtful over a lot of unanswerable things in life; and frankly, it's all just better.

I think I'm dehydrated because my throat always hurts, my lips are always dry, and I always want some water.

I've been eating too much. And it seems like the more I eat the less energy I have to do more artistic things. I've also been more detached amongst friends; it's not intentional at all. I really don't know however.

I really have nothing interesting to discuss.

nothing special

Tue, 18 May 2004 05:36:57 GMT

I reorganized my furniture on Sunday and I absolutely have no regrets of doing so. My bed is right next to my window and I've found it nice just to open my shutters and look outside.

We named our children after towns that we've never been to. And it's true that the clouds just hung around like black Cadillacs outside a funeral. And we were laughing at the stars while our feet clung tight to the ground. So pleased with ourselves for using so many verbs and nouns.

But we were all still dumb, dumb, dumber than the dirt, dirt, dirt on the ground. Well wings on flames, kings with no names, well this place just ain't got right air right now. You were so all over town but still so Crayola brown. Well you should run 'round yourself right now. And we were done, done, done with all the fuck, fuck, fuckin' around. Circlin' round.

OK

Sun, 16 May 2004 08:13:03 GMT

I went to Berkeley in the afternoon. We went shopping and I got music and clothes. We had a nice time; it was good to be away. It was tiring though, so I left after a little while. I haven't slept since, and maybe I should. Who knows.

Hey dudes, join filmxharlots because shit like that is cool, dude.

bling

Sat, 15 May 2004 06:46:07 GMT

Tonight, I went shopping. I bought new shoes, again. They're Puma Anjans in Pompeiian Red/Decadent Chocolate. I also got a pair of white J. Crew flip flops, and a cute white & bright blue top. I don't know, purchasing shoes is such an addiction for me. A lot of other things eventually become a drag to look at but I'm always in the mood for shoes. Spending this money doesn't help much on my savings either.

Tomorrow, I want to reorganize the furniture in my room. I want to take naked naps with my window shutters slightly opened, so only the warm sweet light enters my room. And if I get the chance, I want to collaborate a list of my belongings I want to sell.

wtf

Fri, 14 May 2004 01:48:34 GMT

I'm in a pretty good livejournal writing mood. Or maybe today just seemed a bit more eventful than before.

I went to school; we watched movies in english and history today-which was a very good break considering those are the two of my busiest classes. In english we watched a more traditional version of Romeo and Juliet; and in history we watched Seven Years In Tibet.

Lunch and brunch came; nobody sits in the upper levels anymore, so I've been found down near the FLs, even though it's kind of uncomfortable sitting there. The sun is shining down right on my face and skin, which is already overly tanned for me. Also, Julia, Brittany, and Megan who were my old lunchtable buddies last year, have been hanging around. Alex and Joel don't really talk to me anymore because of that; it's really annoying considering all that comes out of their mouth is crap, like, "My mother told me not to have sex with boys, but who's gonna stop me?" They just want to get some ass from Alex, which is kind of lame.

School is kind of stressing; we have finals soon. They'll all be pretty easy, except for maths-which is a cummulative test for everything we've learned the entire two semesters.

Last night was a bit depressing for me. First, the school confused my suspension for a cut; and I got the impression they were really watching me. Second, my relatives in Illinois have a lot of legal issues. My cousin Louis got into a verbal fight with my other cousin, Felicia-that almost ended violently. The cops arrested Louis and now they can't do anything about it but go through the whole court system. I feel really terrible for him, considering the fact that he's had terrible years with drugs and nobody to turn to. I remember riding in the car with him during my trip awhile ago. He told me about his younger years and his days being into a lot of music and shows at the Metro. He is a very nice person and somebody I can relate with, yet his life and attitudes doesn't seem to have gotten much better.

I really need a job but I'll be gone for most of July so I don't know how that is going to work out. Babysitting doesn't make enough money; I'm thinking about selling some of my old things to Buffalo Exchange or on Ebay.

In the afternoon, I saw Brian and Kenny at school. They have a new band, Del Thugs, and forced me to buy a cd. It was only a buck but I was expecting more than one song, so that was the only disappointment.

I came back home with a pair of sore feet and sewed up a pair of my Levi's. I'm satisfied with results, and it feels nice to have the needle and thread back in my hands.

I talked to Hayz via phone for a bit this afternoon; it was nice to hear her again. I later found out my mom called srvusd, and they'll most likely accept my transfer.

And Jen, I don't think I'll make it to your dance party tomorrow-I'm sorry you guys, hope your birthday bash is a blast.

I'm out to babysit and steal rocky road ice cream from my neighbors.

sites of discomfort

Tue, 11 May 2004 08:36:58 GMT

parched throat
bloated stomach
stuffy head
shoulder blade ache
chapped fucking lips
etc.etc.etc.

HELP

P.S. pain in back left molar.

mother's day

Mon, 10 May 2004 07:56:43 GMT

Today was a blur. I was supposed to wake up at ten, but due to the fact that I went to bed at four, I didn't manage to do anything until twelve. I went to buy an orchid for my mom; I gave that to her along with a hand-drawn card. I hung around the house the whole after, and managed to cut a lot of my hair off. At night, we had dinner at Guiseppe's. There was a jazz performance there, and an entire table of old ladies were getting into it. The singer, Orphis Paradise, later came to talk to us, and complimented me on my name and haircut. She was a really nice person, and it was touching that the old ladies were having such a grand time.

At the resturant

Dorks hide in their closet

Dorks take pictures of themselves in obscure angles

Dorks act like wanna-be gangstuhs

I am feeling really sick, so I need to go lie down.

boredom

Sun, 09 May 2004 06:15:55 GMT

I went on an outing tonight to Target and Border's. I just bought the new issue of Spin, featuring Morrissey. At first, I didn't even recognize him on the cover. I don't even like his new songs but the article is interesting and it includes great pictures from the past. I also got BBC's New Order and Joy Division mini boxset, and so far it's quite good. New things are exciting, except for the fact that I'm trying to save up but I'm spending instead.

Saturday nights are kind of weird in the Bishop Ranch area. There are kids all over; going into places and coming out to stand around with others. I mean, at least they should find somewhere better to go. I saw this boy who's always at shows I go to. He glared at me; but not in the "why the fuck are you here" way, but more of like a "hey I've seen you around but I didn't know you lived here" look. I don't know, maybe I should say hi and get acquainted.

I just had a cigarette and it's cold outside again. Why does this weather keep on fluctuating?

My diet has mainly consisted of oranges. I'm eating them everyday, and drinking orange juice all the time. I haven't had any chocolate in awhile, which is nice because chocolate has always made me sick afterwards.

My stepdad 'exploded' on me again. He always does this whenever something goes on between my mom and I. Is that wrong? I think so; since it really shouldn't be any of his concern. It put me in a bad mood for awhile, but now I'm feeling better.

I have to call my grandma soon, but I'm looking very forward to talking to her. She's super nice and everything, but she always speaks so loud so that makes it hard to put the phone up my ear and keep it there.

lyke woah

Sat, 08 May 2004 21:39:44 GMT

Happy Birthday to Kelton! Last night I went with Tatiana to her 16th birthday party. A bunch of bands from school played there. We stayed outside for awhile, went to Burger King, and came back. Hung out with Brandon, Troy, Roxanne, Melissa, Kim and Ashley, and some others. I enjoyed most of the night. We needed a place to chill for awhile so Kyle let us sit in his car. And we took silly pictures.

I look hecka weird.

I don't know what we're doing.

"West Sidahz"/White Power/Vagina Lovers

I seem to be having a good time.

Anyways. We came back home and chilled in my room; listening to some mix cds. I fell asleep watching the Dave Chapelle DVDs. We woke up at noon and I had sushi and half a slice of bagel.

My new email is: and_we_dance@yahoo.com

Have a good day everybody.

oh, how time flies

Fri, 07 May 2004 05:18:08 GMT

oh so you said: it reminds me of mexico
chained2thedoor6: that picture reminds me of like a picnic

P.S. Why has nobody been on AIM lately? Give me your screen name so perhaps I could strike up some new and interesting conversations.

better sell it while you can

Thu, 06 May 2004 05:48:06 GMT

Making myself busy with things has been awkward. I haven't talked to many people; but I don't feeling missing. I suppose I really don't need as much of everything around me as I thought. I've still been feeling melancholy, however. Perhaps opening up a bottle of wine will help.

I have terrible eating habits. Whenever I get hungry, I stuff myself with food. Afterwards, I feel disgusting and horrible, like I need to puke or something. But of course, I'm not bulemic.

I really dislike Morrissey's new stuff. I'm going to go have a mango. That's something I won't overstuff myself with.

i'd make a million trips to his lips

Wed, 05 May 2004 03:39:45 GMT

Japan has been booked out for the entire month of July, so we're going to Singapore instead. I'm pretty disappointed; but there's not much I can do.

My mom just told me a religious story. It was awkward because she never talks about God, heaven, or hell. I think it was supposed to be related to me.

Big Sur is excellent. So is SEA, though the diction was rather difficult to comprehend. I can't wait to get my hands on that poster, Tatiana.

I go back to school tomorrow. I wish summer could be here a little faster and stay a little longer.

Little things get awkward when you think about them excessively.

click click

Mon, 03 May 2004 08:22:39 GMT

Oh my, I'm in love with this band.

Check out my new layout.

Japan & Hong Kong & China will be fantastic.

I don't really care if I'm missing out on Morrissey and Sonic Youth and Le Tigre and others; that thing is so damn expensive anyways.

Though I am looking forward to Peaches/Dance Disaster Movement and Yo La Tengo this month. And Lou Reed is coming too! Yes!

I'm saving up money to get a decent keyboard. I am going to rule at that.

I sketched a great model from a Missoni advertisment; she is very tanned, tropical, and exotic-looking. My next project has still not been decided yet.

I had a very strange dream last night (no surprise). But the feelings I experienced were so vivid and alive, as if I were actually living through it.

I feel very very content even though I can't do shit.

so what?

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 04:17:26 GMT

Today was a somewhat interesting day. I arrived at school way early because we had testing. Brandon and I finished that; and left class early. Him and Alex got mohawks; and they look rather decent. I hate testing schedules because I can never find people during breaks. But anyway, the day flew by rather fast and soon enough, I was leaving my last class early.

I hung out with Brandon and Alex until around six. We sat around outside and did stupid stuff. Brandon was going crazy, singing a ton of songs, like Blitz and Anti-Nowhere League and Reagan Youth! They are pretty crazy, and we did a bunch of wack things around the neighborhood. It's fun hanging around them.

Today an 8th grader (he is actually supposed to be a freshman but he got held back) at a nearby middle school died in a biking accident from the previous night. Supposedly he somehow fell off his bicycle near the Bollinger area and injured his head. And this just makes me wonder, "Wow, who will be next?" We've had two people related to our school die during this past month. I'm glad I didn't really know any of them personally.

Yes! I am in quite a good mood. Much of my outlook has changed throughout the past few weeks; and only for the better. Picture post coming up soon!

so yeah

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 02:29:32 GMT

I went swimsuit shopping & I bought two. I don't know which one to keep. What do you think?

: x

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 20:27:24 GMT

A S D F

"wack"

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 01:54:48 GMT

I just woke up from a brief nap that was longer than expected and stranger than anything. I didn't even think I was sleeping, because weird dreams kept popping into my head. We were in "heaven" and we needed to decide if we just wanted to stay there or go to "paradise." It felt like we were doing a skit too, and the people bustling around me were just playing their role. Then somehow, I end up on a certain type of transportation and people are literally haunting me. A boy from my classes who is around four feet ten inches tall had gushing blood all over, screaming "Juuuudy, I'm going to get youuuu." He was actually wearing a dead man's head over his, and eventually he popped it off to reveal his identity, and disappeared right after. Then, I woke myself up, if that makes any sense. And when I refer to "we" I really don't remember who else was in the dream. I wish I could remember these things better.

It seems like I don't remember my dreams, unless they really happen, if that makes any sense either. This morning during testing, I was sitting adjacent to Brandon. The teacher was talking and I totally remembered this scene in a dream I had several weeks ago. If this keeps on going, I am destined to be the next Miss Cleo.

Yesterday I took my septum ring out because I had a cold. I remember placing it on my desk yet later in the night when I was searching, it could not be found. It feels strange without my septum in; I don't really mind it however. It feels like I've been going insane today; but it doesn't really disappoint me.

take me back

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 01:53:50 GMT

Talking to my old friends back in Arizona is wonderful. It's great to connect old memories with the current lives of people I once knew.

drop stop R0LL: go to amsterdam, and you'll break yo edge
A New Excuse: edge is loooooooong past broken my friend
drop stop R0LL: hahaha
drop stop R0LL: REALLY?
A New Excuse: hahaha it's almost been a year
drop stop R0LL: what happened!
A New Excuse: hahaha nothing major
A New Excuse: just had a shitty day and had some bacardi
A New Excuse: and i was like "fuck this"
drop stop R0LL: yes
A New Excuse: shows how much will power i have
A New Excuse: i don't smoke or anything
A New Excuse: or do coke
A New Excuse: which is actually big here lately
drop stop R0LL: really?
A New Excuse: yeah
drop stop R0LL: weed is soooo big here
A New Excuse: it's becoming commonplace
drop stop R0LL: 420
A New Excuse: hahaha yesterday
drop stop R0LL: it's hella hard to get coke here
A New Excuse: no but seriously
A New Excuse: there are coke deals on my bus sometimes
A New Excuse: but you know casey lee?
drop stop R0LL: hahahahaha
drop stop R0LL: YES!
A New Excuse: do you remember him?
drop stop R0LL: YES
A New Excuse: hahaha yep
drop stop R0LL: THE REALLY DORKY KID
A New Excuse: he sells it
drop stop R0LL: omg
drop stop R0LL: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
drop stop R0LL: hahahaha
drop stop R0LL: that's crazay
A New Excuse: hahaha yep
A New Excuse: oh oh oh and remember that emily chick in munhall with us?
drop stop R0LL: hahaha
drop stop R0LL: YES
drop stop R0LL: OH
A New Excuse: but she got expelled recently
drop stop R0LL: w33d?
drop stop R0LL: hahaha
A New Excuse: for a death threat to a teacher
drop stop R0LL: HAHAHAHAHAHAH
A New Excuse: i know!!!!
A New Excuse: it's so fuckin funny
A New Excuse: hahaha
drop stop R0LL: that's awesome
drop stop R0LL: what did they say
A New Excuse: OMG lyke LOL i'm so gonna kill ms. ____
A New Excuse: some note like that
drop stop R0LL: HAHAHAHA
A New Excuse: but the teacher found it threatening
drop stop R0LL: hahahah
A New Excuse: it's so great
drop stop R0LL: so she's still stupid like that
drop stop R0LL: wow these memories are great
A New Excuse: i know hahaha
A New Excuse: i found a bunch o' pitchas from the lee's fairy trip
A New Excuse: or is it ferry?
A New Excuse: yeah, ferry
drop stop R0LL: oh man, good times
drop stop R0LL: i've still got my pix
A New Excuse: yeah
A New Excuse: and i was looking through a lotta shit
A New Excuse: and found a letter from you in china like right after 7th
A New Excuse: with that cookie monster and chinese stamp
drop stop R0LL: hahahahahahahaha
A New Excuse: both of which i still have

and i'm getting drunk

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 06:03:00 GMT

I haven't been in the mood for updating lately. Today is marijuana day. People in my school have been stoned since midnight of 4/20. Now that is dedication.

Alex got his nipples pierced over spring break. They're hot.

I got my mail from Jennykins; she made me a very cool collage. People should send me snail mail more often.

I've been going through magazines the whole night. And pondering. I think I should go ponder some more, or not.

But it's a nice night and I wish I was out and about, even if by myself. I've had such high energy levels these past couple of days.

DRUNK BEYOND BELIEF EQUALS AMAZING